Worldly ambition is a sin, says Thessalonians 4:11, says I, not writing for months, playing The Sims 4 for hours, catching up on Taylor Swift’s feud with Scooter Braun. Capitalism has trained us to search for meaning in accolades, prestige, prizes, by rejecting this I am rejecting capitalism, refusing to chase titles or professional success is a radical act, truth and meaning can only be found in community, in love, in God, even though my community is my two friends I facetime on weekends to get drunk and talk shit, even if my boyfriend and I keep getting into fights about the dishes, even if I haven’t been to confession in eight years.